Miracle LRE — Sorry I'm Different

And she asked me, "If death sat next to you in a bar,
Looked you in the face and said,
'Time is up,' what would you say?" My first question would be,
"Oh, what took you so long?" I sent the invitation long ago,
You've rejected me so many times.
Sorry, man,
One last thing: can we just sit together for a bit,
So I can finally have a friend, please?
Oh, I don't mean to make you cry, but when I die,
Just box me off.
I need no headstone, no names,
No titles; I'm a piece of shit who will be forgotten anyway.
My mind has been a war zone; at least I pray I find peace now.
And if I die, no matter what, don't bring me back here,
It's dark here.
And I hate the dark, but at least I tried,
Even though I tried.
With memories, I would love to relive again.
I don't want to be born again,
Not in this godforsaken place.
And to you,
That one person—one person—I wish I could give you the world,
So I know I can.
But how can I love you when I don't even love who I am?
How do I give you peace when my mind is a war zone?
How do I find you when I've lost my mind and my way?
How do I tell you we will be okay when I'm barely holding on?
How do I tell you the truth when I've been lying to myself my whole life?
That it's okay.
My mind has been a war zone; at least I pray I find peace now.
And if I die, no matter what, don't bring me back here,
It's dark here.
And I hate the dark, but at least I tried, at least I tried.
With memories, I would love to relive again.
Oh, to relive again.
I'm a fish in the desert; there's nothing to do to save me.
I am drowning in a sea no one could swim.
I'm already doomed and no one can save me.